Dad

There was once a time when I really was alright with my dad being gone. I never thought twice about the man, I wasn't torn up about his absence. Our family was beautiful and functional without a father. So I didn't want anything to change. And I suppose I still don't. I know it seem harsh to say that, but it's just the way it is. That is how I feel.

The other day I was in chapel and a speaker came and talked about love. Love, again? Man, it's the most preached about subject out there! I started to tune him out until he said something that really hit me hard. He said "Jesus digs you". Ha. What an odd statement...but it had an impact. Jesus digs me. hmm. Love. He was saying that my father, my true father, loves me more than anything. I am a priceless gem. I can't even fathom what that means. I can't even begin to dream how much he loves me.

It was really hard for me to think about how much my father loves me. I have nothing to compare it to, I don't know how a father loves his daughter. I have never been kissed goodnight by my daddy, I've never been set on his lap while watching tv. I won't ever know what it's like to dance with him. I won't be given away at my wedding by the man that watched me grow. So how am I to know how a dad loves his little girl? I don't.

But then the worship team played a song, one that I've been playing a lot lately. You know, those songs that you always sing but never really think about, it was one of those. How He Loves Us. huh...this was the first time these words hit me. They really sank in and I FELT how much He loves me. I could reach out and grab the tangible love that was coming down from Heaven. Everyday I wake up, heck, even when I'm asleep, his love envelops me. He is looking down from where He sits and smiles at me. He hugs me and kisses my cheek. He sings me to sleep every night.

It's absolutely astounding how much He loves us. Despite our countless flaws and many many mistakes, He loves us still. I suppose I'm repeating myself, but it's impossible to really grasp at how great his love for us, so I just have to keep saying it! All those broken families without dad's need to know that there is a father who loves them! There is a daddy who tucks them in at night and will walk them down the isle!

WHAT AN AMAZING FATHER WE HAVE!